another genesis

Sometimes, I feel like I have run over the same tire track with different rubber a hundred times and after a while you need new grooves. Part of me yearns for someone to understand. Part of me is sick of telling people the latest in my life when they are can't even grasp a leaf off the Redwood. And then the half serious jokes come and bets about what life altering mistake they think I will make next. I know I don't deserve the confidence but I think so many of us are the kid in class that hope for the B because after so many of them, everyone begins to think we aren't capable of an A. And then we believe it.